Photograph by a dear brother in the Lord, Lloyd, from "the other side of the lake". Thanks Lloyd for the use of your wonderful artistry.Well, I'm sure it comes to no surprise to anyone, what troubled times we find ourselves in. Whether it be finances, job loss, hour cuts, pay cuts...you name it. The struggles are out there and many are suffering. I too find myself in the percentage of those struggling. I am required to work a second job to keep our heads above water, and to just kind of keep things in the black. Even with the second job numbers will occasionally slip into the red, so I was very grateful for an additional benefit of a second job to be able to increase those hours a bit and bring things back up when needed. All it takes is a surprise in the budget and Boom!
As recently as this week that benefit was cut off, hopefully temporarily, but cut off just the same. My second job reduced it's hours, substantially, which for some was not a big deal, a few adjustments here and there. But for myself, and others that work it as a second job, means it will be quite a challenge. The cut reduced my personal possible hours per week by more than half. This coming the week after finding out that the kids dad was laid off, medical insurance was cut off for everyone, and unemployment on his end would mean a cut in child support on mine.
This in no means it a "poor sherry" or "sob story"...simply that things happen and how interesting it is when that heavenly kick in the earthly behind always seems to be a surprise. Some may think, well Sherry is a Christian, she knows it will all work out fine. Fair enough...BUT...my first impulse was to be affected by the "SPIRIT OF FREAK OUT" (a phrase coined by a dear sister in the Lord), in which of course I did. But now, after having a few days to calm myself and no doubt pray; I try to find as many of the good things I can about the situation. And today, I can finally see, though first in great disbelief, that there are many good and blessed things to be experienced by the change.
First and foremost; God Is In Control! There is a reason for the way things happen. I know He will care and guide my family and me through this. But in addition, there are also a lot of very apparent benefits. I don't believe I truly saw them before, but I was overworking trying to keep up, instead of trusting more and well, simply 'Letting God'. I even found myself the other night at one of my teens school functions, under so much stress that I couldn't even relax. There I was, at a function with my teens and friends. I should have been enjoying myself and the time I had out of the house with the family. But instead, working so many hours had been quickly programmed into my head and even my entire body and spirit, that it was focusing my attention on the clock. I found myself fidgeting in my seat with the distinct feeling as though I should be at home on the computer putting in "the hours". I see there is a real problem with that. It should be my eyes, my focus on the Lord, and spending time with my family that is programmed in, not the other way around.
So today, a simple four days later, I find many blessings in this change and yet another season of my life. More time for devotions to be had; more walks to be taken; more dinners with my children to be eaten. Yes indeed, my cup is half way full to overflowing once again, even if my wallet or bank account is not. I had simply failed momentarily to see the good in it. Thank God for His forgiveness in our short-comings, and gratefully, I was only in
temporary "freak out" mode.
Here we go, into the next season of change. Maybe the hours will be increased to normal again, or maybe this is it and adjustments will just need to be made...again...! In either case, I have been reminded where my focus needs to be. So, here it is, this life of ups and downs, a virtual roller coaster it seems at times. But that is the way of our earthly lives, and it is my honor to know that there is so much more when this stressful, chaotic and extremely short life on earth is over. An eternity that is beyond all measure or understanding; that narrow path walked and struggled down is rewarded later. Yes, I thankfully have that knowledge, and that is where my focus is. What a blessed life I lead. And what wonderful sites, sounds, and experiences I have to discover along the way.
What a joy it is to know we have a bridge over those trouble waters. A Lesson Learned....AGAIN!
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